what is in my mind..

ok..lets talk about what is going on with my mind??my soul??..
haih..lately be soo lazy2 n lazy to the end..dont know why..
suppose, this is not the attitude for last year student..
so many thing come cross my mind..so many thing problems..
at the end..i just want let it be without thinking about it..
i know..my wrong..my bad..I should not be act that way..
but why..its so difficult to be a good person..maybe because of me..
because of my self..that not have confident and do not do self reflection..
every time..every day..same thing will happen..got lazy..

haih..im so pity with my parents..that put a lot of hope on me..
but i like throw away the hope..and not even trying..hmm..
its my bad..my bad..and my bad..what should i do??
Allah..help me..I need your bless in my life....
what wrong i do??did i too far away from YOU??
did i do a lot of SIN?how should i wash it??
i dont have anyone to show me that right pathway....

I NEED HELP!